looks like i hit 100 fans yesterday.

thank you to everyone who bothered following me. i'm very grateful to be in the triple digit club now

these are my new song covers that ive made over the course of the last month or so. if you liked my cover of rumble this is more of the same thing. enjoy!!

i'm currently working on a double cover project so while i have this front page post i shall use it to show you what i've done earlier this month:

so cool

let me start by reminding you that my debut album came out on bandcamp in december and is now available. i am currently giving out free download codes for it, so if you have a bandcamp fan account, and you would like to add my album to your collection, let me know and i'll hook you up.

as always i'm here to show you the fruits of my labor as of the last 2 weeks

its a mix of my usual style of song + 2 songs that i recorded on guitar while experimenting with effects pedals. i hope you enjoy them!!

since my last front page post, i've put out 3 new songs that you may have missed:

i also released my first album on bandcamp over a month ago now. i'm currently giving out several free download codes for it. so if you're interested in owning a digital, lossless version of the album: message me here on newgrounds and i'll get you one. enjoy and thank you for your time

It's time for me to use the blog function on this website to write an actual personal blog entry. I know, it's crazy. I normally use this to shill my own music on the front page.

And rest assured, I will bury this with another front page music-related post soon enough. So if you're reading this because you saw it show up at the top of my profile; consider yourself lucky. Unless you're one of those weirdos that actually scrolls through people's past blog posts. Buckle up for some good old fashioned oversharing.

I don't know if I've written about this before, and if I haven't, then I'll say this now: On June 15th 2022, I graduated high school. And the postgrad life has proven to be a real bitch.

Now luckily, there's no pressure being put on me by anyone right now. Both of my parents seem content with me just taking my time and figuring out what I want to do, though pretty much everyone seems to believe that college/university is what's best for me.

I couldn't disagree more. Not only am I not interested in any subject or course that's available to me at the local unis, but on top of that, I don't think I have the capacity to take another 4 years of schooling in a whole new environment. It would drive me nuts.

A while back, when graduation was merely an abstract concept of the distant future in my mind, I figured it would be as simple as me suddenly getting some sort of epiphany, figuring out what I want to do, getting the job I want and living happily ever after. As I've come to learn, that's far from the case.

My main problem is that I don't know what I want to do. I have some passions and favored pastimes and interests, but none of them are marketable in any realistic way at all. So it's turned into this conundrum in my head where I have to go out and get a job or start some kind of college course, but none of the options seem appealing in any way at all. There's a ridiculous amount of options and yet, none of them speak to me whatsoever.

The advice that I always get from people who are a little older than me is to just "try anything", without even looking at what I'm signing up for. Just doing any dumb job I can get for a while and seeing what happens. This may work for most other people, but I just can't do it, because it's just not me. I have to know what it is I'm in for, cause that's how my mind works. As it turns out, school really doesn't set you up for the adult job-seeking life at all. It's a total mess and I have no clue where I'm going to be in a year from now.

The only thing I have going for me right now is my driver's license. I've started doing lessons and driving around in an actual car with an instructor sitting next to me. When I'm done and I've finally gotten my license, I will officially have nothing going on in my life at all, no reason to wake up in the morning. It's turned into this groundhog day scenario already where the days start to blend into eachother. Each day seems incredibly short and the vast majority of them have no meaningful happenings whatsoever. I'm just one guy sitting at a computer for most of the day, and occasionally talking to strangers online. I know I'm not alone in feeling like this, but that really doesn't make me feel any better about anything. I just wish I had a direction for my life to go in, like so many other people seem to have.

That's all I can muster up for now. I've just realized while writing that I'm starting to ramble so I'm cutting it all short here

If you relate to anything you've read, then all I can say is good luck to you. I'm probably not qualified to give you any good advice, seeing as I'm still trying to figure out the solution to the problem myself.

i felt like having my own bandcamp, so i went and put together an album & uploaded it on my brand new bandcamp page!!

https://jizzyjazz.bandcamp.com/album/maladroid

for now i have posted an album comprised of several original tracks i uploaded on newgrounds over the past 2 years. if you're familiar with my work, then this album won't be any new to you. there is an option to buy the album and support me if you wish to do so, though i plan to always keep my music free to download on newgrounds. there is plenty more music to come in the future.

thanks & enjoy!!

i thought i'd shill my new music again since my news page was looking a little too overrun with shitposts.

check 'em out. i think you'll at the very least tolerate them. more to come as always

by popular demand (mostly thanks to thebulbmin), it is time for the thrilling conclusion to this saga