so im slowly starting to get the hang of how music is made (am using a trial copy of FL studio 12, the trial's already expired but everything still works. don't tell the coppers pls)

my brain is practically bursting with cool little melodies. my creative juices are so gosh darn fresh and juicy, you have no idea.

it's just extremely hard to translate the things that are playing in my head into a timeline on the program. the sound and tonality need to be perfect, the drums need to be absolutely fucking impeccable (if you know where i can find some good drum set VSTs, let me know), and i have to be able to listen to the tune a day after making it without hating it and deciding to start from scratch.

its starting to set in just how hard it is to have a decent tune stretch out into the 2-3 minute marks without ruining anything. hats off to whoever can manage that kind of thing on the regular, i suppose

my ultimate goal right now is to just have something, ANYTHING, that i deem good enough to upload to the audio portal some day. we'll see what happens.